Saturday, August 07, 2010

Winding and Wondering

About four and a half years ago I last had my hands upon the paperwork that would make our dreams real.


And, today I can say that I'm starting to remember the girl that once was so hope and dream filled as the one in this photograph.

She (and her dear husband) sent off the package of documents to this austere and somewhat mysterious place...


to be maintained, accounted for and clasped in a promising holding pattern until its time came due.

All of these months...years, actually, I have wondered: What color was our dossier cover? Were we on the top shelf - or somewhere shuffled in the middle?

How many shelves...


or desks has it touched?




What did the people who work in this building...


think of us? Did they find us interesting, cute, prosperous, charming, ordinary...kind?

According to the rumor-trackers and modern day soothsayers...matching has begun.

Will we hear our long-awaited news this week or next? Or will it be longer?

21 comments:

K said...

I'm wondering if you can remember to even breathe in the anticipation of knowing that your referral is on the horizon after so many years of waiting. Just thinking about you gives me an adrenalin rush so I can only imagine how you must feel.

How's the nursery coming along? It seems like an eon ago that you posted the curtain pictures.

Johnny said...

Wheee!!! (maybe)

Pink Velvet Mommy said...

I am just giddy with excitement:)

I have found myself checking RQ frequently to see what she is prediciting on date of arrivals!!

Everything changes the moment you lay on eyes on them. They are no longer a dream, you have a face to put in that dream.

So excited for you:) Do remember to breath this week, it will be tough, and forget getting anything done before the referral now, and give yourself about a week or two after to float along on cloud 9!!

Special K said...

I've been thinking of you often and wondering how you were doing with rumors on the horizon. I'm so incredibly excited for you! (And not just cuz the quicker they get to you...the quicker they get to ME! LOL!)

Kayce said...

Been thinking of you so much lately! I can't wait for your dreams to be fulfilled! Waiting in anticipation with you!!

Joannah said...

So exciting!

HuluMama said...

So excited for you! Also know what you mean about remember the hope and dream filled girl.
On the other side of the world your dossier sits on a desk waiting to be matched with your perfect little someone. Joyful tears fill my eyes when I picture this.

Tammy said...

I have goosebumps and tears. You have waited so long, I can only imagine that you must be ready to bust with anticipation.

I'll be checking in like an addict waiting to see Buttercup's referral announcement (and pics, of course).

Bobbi Jo said...

Chills!!! Goosebumps!!! Can't wait to hear your fantastic news!!! Fingers crossed that it's this month!!

Katie J said...

Your post is giving me tears in my eyes and joy in my heart. I'll be waiting with you.

K said...

I just sewed Apple's first diaper. If you'd like to see it, it's at:

http://fencingmama.blogspot.com/2010/08/applefirst-mommy-made-diaper.html

I'm thrilled with it!

kitchu said...

Oh Wendy!!!!! the excitement for you is palpable. i am.... squealing!!

Project Ni Hao said...

:)

Kelli said...

I'm waiting and waiting for NEWS! It's a mystery exactly HOW it happens in that room, but it's pure magic. Whatever it is, whatever forces come into play, they make magic in the matching room. Of all of the people who touched my paperwork in China, it's the person who matched me with my daughter that I would fall to my knees in deepest gratitude for. I can't wait to hear that you have someone to fall to your knees for as well.

VisionQuest said...

well put. you are on my mind. thinking "family" thoughts for you. xoxo

K said...

The first rumors are coming in as the 16th, but I don't know if these means families logged in thru the 16th are going to be matched or if the 16th is when phone calls will begin. Are you still breathing?

Kelli said...

I'm with K, my first thought was "are you breathing?" breathe...breathe....breathe... can't wait to see that sweet baby face!

Shannon said...

Just checked RQ and flew on over here. Bring on the babies- bring on your baby!! =)

Beth said...

That hope and dream filled girl? I know how scary she can be... But it's time to let her come back. Turns out she's wiser and stronger than you ever could have expected. Following the lastest rumors and have followed your journey for a long time -- so excited for you!

Fliss and Mike Adventures said...

Let me tell you - and you will want to slap me... once you get that photo... all the years of waiting will literally fade away... it would have been worth this god awful wait... I can NOT imagine my life pre Shauna and how your life will change and when you get that referral... you will be in a tailspin for the first week :) Can't wait...

Jonni said...

Wow, it's really here and you know what? You guys are going to be the MOST awesome parents ever! So happy for you guys. I am so darn excited for you, I can hardly stand it.

Hugs,
jonni